CDIH

I think that there should be an all members bulletin so we can get reminded why we didn't miss them anyway.

We'll always have Secaucus.

Speaking of which.



Just kidding.

it was a good run.

good times were had.

indeed.

bye cdih.

bye.

Well, I'd like to say good bye and thank you to you all for letting me have the honor of posting with you. It was very fun. I'll miss you all.

Good bye CDIH.

your welcome

I'm heading upstate, so I'll miss the shutdown. Those connected on Facebook, or who head to the board on WaxFantastic...we'll be seeing one another. Boredplanet.com still plugs along with the same post whores...Topper, Header, Rooner, Flock of Moosen, Ballz, etc. What they talk about? I couldn't tell you. I don't read it. But it is there nonetheless.

There is a lot of history on these boards for me. Being over 400lbs, workaholic and miserable...yet modding OpieAnthony.com, AIM chats with Anthony and his wreck of a girlfriend. Sig pics, mentions from the show, all that mod politics and hoopla. CDIH being made, and there being a golden heyday here as much as there was on OA.com. Alkey's creation on YMB. My thinner days. The all sorts of weirdness from Slash's crash and burn (yes, most are very lucky to miss most of that). YMB's heyday. YMB's fall from grace. Being asked to make a board for SaveOA board members and those unhappy on YMB...then having people freak when we didn't tell most we were rolling it out. BP's small heyday. Then it's plugging along as I posted here and there.

Last 7 to 8 years were a wild ride. Board women. To infighting. To finally watching several of us branch out to new horizons. I'm still chubby. At least that's a constant. But, I'm doing things I never thought I would...married. New kid on the way. Writing about hockey. Credentialed by hockey teams. Mentioned in the NY Times, Sports Illustrated, SportBusiness Journal, Newsday, top hockey blogs, etc. I've had a wild ride in the past year and a half. Some might not be aware because I simply have not shared it or promoted it on the board. For me, if you haven't noticed. I'm pretty private. But, I felt I should share in the farewell.

In fact, I owe a lot of my style, swagger and experience to these boards. That all that text back and forth...whatever silliness, fickleness, insular ravings, trollish stylings, and bizarre humor we all threw at one another...made us better. The blogosphere has been a natural progression for many of us. Podcasts for others. For others, relationships happened. Somehow, the things that ties it together is here.

This board marked us. For that I thank you.

I wish you all the best. Sincerely.

I'm just glad I finally got to ban arpi, and yes I should have done that 5 years ago.

I am an incredibly fucked up individual. I’m not just saying that for some shock value or to be edgy or in some kind of, “nigger nigger cunt cunt look at me I’m wacky” kind of way. I have some serious deep-seated issues. I am as emotionally, socially, psychologically fucked up as anyone you will ever encounter in your e-lives or real lives. I am going to be 29 years old in a couple of weeks and I have absolutely no idea who I am, who I want to be, or what I want out of life. The cognitive dissonance that goes on in my damaged brain on a daily basis has led to the creation of multiple personalities. I have several different aspects of my personality that I display depending on my surroundings. The person I have been on these boards is not the person I am when I’m around family or friends or at work or around strangers.

The person that I have displayed the last eight years on these boards is but a small representation of everything that makes up me. I have said (written, whatever) things on these boards, to you people, that I have never shared with anybody else. Whether it be about my feelings on niggers, god, retards, pederasts, what have you, this side of my personality is the closest to being the real “me” that I have been able to achieve. And yet, this Bloody Anus character still only represents a small fraction of everything that is me. There are things that you know about me that nobody else, not even my family, knows. I don’t know exactly what I’m trying to convey here, or what I hope to accomplish or hoped to accomplish over the years by maintaining this enigmatic, mysterioso personality, but all I know is that that means something. You know things about me, or things that I think or believe in, that my own mother doesn’t even know. That’s something.

I’ve had no interest over the years in getting to know anyone here or forming any kind of e-friendships. But the fact that I’ve “known” (as much as anyone can “know” someone based on text on a monitor) people here for upwards of eight years, is pretty amazing when I stop and think about it. I don’t have a lot of friends, and for a stretch OA.com was the only semblance of a social life I had. I never posted much because I really didn’t think I had too much to say. I never wanted to get into these back and forth one line "conversations". I wanted each and every post to mean something. I never wanted to post for the sake of posting. As a result I never got to “know” anyone as much as some side(s) of my personalities would have probably liked. The Bloody Anus portion of “me” didn’t want to be bigger than the board, didn’t want to stand out, didn’t want any kind of extra attention, didn’t want to win any meaningless awards. But somewhere inside of me, all that stuff obviously meant something, as I kept coming back after all these years.

There’s more to be said, but I just want to get this posted and ultimately archived before it’s too late. I have a tendency of rambling on and on and I don’t have that luxury now. For those that didn’t know and are interested, I do have a website up at memoirsofadespicableman.com. I have a plethora of ideas and plans for this site, some of which I’ve wanted to do for years. I don’t know how much of this I will get to, how much time I will spend on the site, or if I will even renew it at the end of the year. But it is there and there are some good things there. Bookmark it, don't bookmark it. I started the site for me, so whether I get 1 hit or 1,000 is meaningless. Hopefully I’ll garner the motivation necessary to keep it updated somewhat regularly. If not, not.

In closing, this was the best board ever and I can’t really say that I’ll miss it since I haven’t really been around much anyway. But for what it’s worth, I enjoyed my time here and found it very refreshing that there was still one place, one messageboard/forum left on this abortion known as the internet, that still “got it”. No censorship, no overmodding, none of the unnecessary bullshit that makes me wish the internet were never invented.

Bye.

Now we'll never get to make big-boards.com. We were so close to 500,000 posts.

We only needed less than 65,000 posts!

Oh wells. I will miss this board so much. I feel like I'll never talk to any of you ever again unless you are on facebook or aim.

Remember that picture that Jays posted on YMB where he looked like a middle aged lesbian? that was awesome.