Smoking is a lifelong addiction...

[Maynard]

So last year, I guess in the Winter, maybe February, I quit smoking. Cold turkey! Then a few months later, I started again. Stress and shit, and I thought that smoking would help. Not a fucking chance. Then I quit in the Spring, and haven't had one since. Well, that is until this past Saturday. I quit cold turkey again that time, and didn't have a single craving at all for a whole year. I've been in bars, and around smokers, and no problems. Then all of a sudden Sat noght I just REALLY wanted one. So I did. I had 5 or so.
No big deal right? Well, today was a fucking miserable day for me. Very emotional shit happening, and I was super stressed. And I had another one today. The thing is though, it made me feel like fucking shit, so I don't think I'll be having another one. But I just don't know. I never thought I'd have one again anyway, and I did.

I fucking hate myself for ever picking up that first cigarette all those years ago.

I know that the topic of quitting smoking has come up here a few times before, but what about starting again? How many people has this happened to? And of you started again after a hiatus, why did you start again?


As much as I enjoyed smoking, I hate it 100 times more.