Confessions

[GonzoStyle]

I also have this insane want to make people happy. I h ave honestly at times sacraficed a lot, stupidly so, I didn't pay enough attention to my real life cause I was too busy trying to please people here. I needed to take some time off just to straighten shit out a while ago. I will let things pile up on me, things that have to do with me personally. In order to do something to make others happy, I honestly do not care much about myself. I really don't view myself as a worthful person at times, worthy of even living to be honest but that is just how I am.

I also have this need to constantly learn, not to be smarter than anyone else or show off. I honestly jusr crave knowlege, and not the gossip type. I love learning about stuff, anything to be honest. I enjoy listening to some people more than talking.

The stupidest things in a conversation usually mean the most to me. cause they are sharing something silly to them but they probably never tell anyone, for whatever reason they trust you with it.

I enjoy kissing more than sex, I find it to be more intimate and loving. Only with a person you care for though.

I am with someone right now that means the world to me. But even before her I have had a major crush on someone here (yes a female). But I never told her how I felt, it doesn't matter now though.