Confessions

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I really enjoy the company I work for, and the people there, but working three days a week only covers the bills. I'd like a full time position, but that job already doesn't give me enough work for three days, much less five. And I give up on the search for a new job too easily, which makes it hard.

I have trouble motivating myself - even if I really want to do something, getting up and actually doing it doesn't come to me.

I kinda miss coding.

I have a huge fear that I will never love again, not as I have loved - but I don't want to settle for anything less.

I've read every post in this thread and didn't reply because I don't like to put myself out there. I fear that such things can be used against me later, as people have done to me in the past, and because of that, I very rarely open myself up to anyone, and never to anyone who hasn't opened themselves up to me first.

I like to listen. Friends often come to me to vent their problems. Often I offer solutions, though I was never asked to. But usually when my solution is ignored, I am told later that they wish they had listened.