Have you ever loved? - Then lost...

[GonzoStyle]

Have you ever loved someone and felt you would never love anyone like that again?

I was with someone for 4 years, we broke up a few months before I joined OA.com in the summer of 2000.

I loved her like crazy, I can't even begin to express it. She fit me like a glove, personality wise she was like a female version of me. She was sarcastic, mean as fuck, funny as Hell and just crazy. Plus she was beautiful, I am not saying that cause she was my g/f, she was actually drop dead beautiful. I was nowhere near what I am now, I was actually the picture of health when we first got together, I was on the baseball team and she was a cheerleader, it was very "typical HS love" type thing. Except I wasn't a big jock nor was she the head cheerleader. I injured my back and went through some serious depression due to a loss in my family and got to where I am now. But that is another story.

Lately I been thinking, how bad I fucked up losing her. Not a day goes by I don't think of her, either I am reminded by something or whatever. I also have a deep rooted fear I will never find her again. Not literally her cause she is married and has kids now.

I fear I will never love anyone as much as her again. I fucked up, it was all my fault, or atleast mostly, maybe she coulda been a bit more understanding. She felt I wasn't paying her enough attention and I was trying to get my business started.

I dunno why I posted this, I just felt like it...