I'm turning over a new leaf

[GonzoStyle]

well I gots a long way to go as far as weight loss, as galts fat jokes have probably let onto by now. It's hard, people most times think its simple, they say "stop eating" get hold of yourself. It's akin to me not possibly understanding someone being a junkie and not be able to control their urge for drugs even though its ruined their lives, it's easy to say "get help, stop doin drugs". I started for the 3 billionth time in the last few years to lose weight, I hope this time I get through it all the way. It's more so important now for my job, presentation is very important and people do make assumptions based on looks no matter what they say. I know that I been turned down for a few jobs cause of the fact I am fat, I didnt fit the "image" one person told me, someone actually told me I was OVER qualified for the position and thats why he didnt hire me.

Also for my health, my knees were bad before all this weight gain, my left knee is torn to shreds but knee replacement isnt an option especially with my weight, I'll wear down the prothesis. So I got my gym membership back and went to a nutritionist friend who was my nutritionist in HS when I was playin baseball. Simply I am just tired of bein me and I wanna change, I am just digustingly fat now, no one would believe me if I said how much... I won't so don't ask. So I feel for you buddy and wish you all the best.