I'm turning over a new leaf

[Gooch]

when it started to fuck up my feet and knees, i decided to go see a therapist to focus on weight. when i failed yet again at simple diet and exercise....and since i was well over 400lbs...i then looked into stomach stapling. it's not the cure-all, or the answer for all..but for me it was my feet were swollen like a pregnant womans. My knees were in pain. It hurt to walk or go up and down the stairs. At Penn Station, I'd go from escalator to escalator so to not have to heave myself up the stairwell. I decided that I was going to die alot sooner, maybe within the decade, if i stayed that way. I looked in the mirror and knew this. I wrote an essay on it on the OA board, when i finally got so frustrated and had come to a decision to not live that way. I still see a therapist about my weight. It will probably be a lifelong struggle.