Being creative

[Gooch]

i draw, write, post, etc. i tend to look to do more when work or life gets frantic, and i need some emotional or mental outlet to vent, play, etc. like...the song parody i did yesterday i did after i got bad news about my grandmother, who's clinging to life. sometimes, i just need to do something to kind of sort myself out, and take a break from the mundane.

i have projects for myself which i want to do: novel, screenplays, etc...but anything that isn't instant gratification or just requires a longterm committment, i seem to have constant trouble with. Conceptually, i have two novels and 2 screenplays planned out...but that is all fuckin useless unless i can put it to paper. so, creativity for me, seems to be some sort of struggle...the small and instanteous stuff of a sketch, post ditty, sig pic, etc...comes with ease and sometimes almost effortless, but the bigger things that I have my heart set on, I feel a constant battle with myself over. Sometimes, i feel that somehow i am failing myself in my inability to get past this.

Shit, is this thread a therapist couch? Obviously, i'm having a bit of an issue with this lately...nice to be able to put it to words finally. :-D