Ever wanna say something, then hold back?

[GonzoStyle]

Well if anyone knows me they know one thing to be true, I will say anything, anytime, to anyone. I am honest and honesty usually is worse than any falsehood you can make up. It gets me in trouble a lot, I am just saying that even I find it kinda weird to suddenly wanna tell my mom I am hard.

I think gooch might be onto something though. With the whole thing that happened with oa.com, I felt bad. Not that I felt guilt, I felt bad that what was once a great place had fallen, like rome froy played the part of nero to perfection. It basically hurt most cause I honestly do care about a lot of the members.

The one fault that gets me hurt most of the time is wanting to help everyone. As well as caring TOO much about people and things. I got almost not sleep the entire weekend, with the IMs, calls, e-mails and so on. I guess gooch might be right, the pressure of that coupled with other stuff that has been getting to me in my personal life, that might be it.

I just wanna say, I mean this from the heart. I do love you guys and girls and you make it all worth it, for all the shit I may get from people, this makes it all worth it.

I'm hard right now.