08-11-2004, 12:45 AM
ding ding ding!!! gonzo wins! it was hawt bawx
"A few years ago, a friend of mine brought over his then girlfriend. Because we ((we being xxxxxxx, myself, and some others)) were not up to par with her lifestyle, we were quickly deemed unworthy of her attention and conversation. She placed herself between her boyfriend and his friends and made him juggle between the two. I always resented her for that, but he never gave up his friendships for her, nor would I have liked if he did. Fast forward to today, and I understood ((somewhat)) of her thinking, but at the same time, I still felt those inadequacies that I felt the day he brought his girlfriend to my house. I love xxxxx, more than I've loved anyone else. But I don't want to be like "her" ... making him juggle between the things that make him most happy. But his friends made me feel like I was just unworthy, stupid, and below them. I may have imagined most of it, but a lot of it has to do with me not having to deal with this sort of pressure before. xxx did not allow me to meet his friends. xxxx did not allow me to meet his friends. I was not good enough, and I was made to believe I was below other people. Hell, those feelings even go beyond those two. But after all that has happened, I know now that I am worthy of people's attention. My opinions matter just as much as anyone else's opinions. No one is better than me, and I am better than no one. I value people upon how they make others feel, not by a level of education, or their upbringing. I know people who have nothing who I'd rather hang out with than people who have it all. But, I need to be more open minded with xxxxx's friends. Maybe it is me who is snapping to judgments and is incorrect in it all. All I know for certain is that I am not going to leave xxxxxx just because I feel uncomfortable ((which, has been my chosen path in the past)). I am not going anywhere, and neither are they. Might as well try to get along, right?
However, I just finally am getting comfortable with who I am, and no one is going to make me change into someone I don't want to be. "
"A few years ago, a friend of mine brought over his then girlfriend. Because we ((we being xxxxxxx, myself, and some others)) were not up to par with her lifestyle, we were quickly deemed unworthy of her attention and conversation. She placed herself between her boyfriend and his friends and made him juggle between the two. I always resented her for that, but he never gave up his friendships for her, nor would I have liked if he did. Fast forward to today, and I understood ((somewhat)) of her thinking, but at the same time, I still felt those inadequacies that I felt the day he brought his girlfriend to my house. I love xxxxx, more than I've loved anyone else. But I don't want to be like "her" ... making him juggle between the things that make him most happy. But his friends made me feel like I was just unworthy, stupid, and below them. I may have imagined most of it, but a lot of it has to do with me not having to deal with this sort of pressure before. xxx did not allow me to meet his friends. xxxx did not allow me to meet his friends. I was not good enough, and I was made to believe I was below other people. Hell, those feelings even go beyond those two. But after all that has happened, I know now that I am worthy of people's attention. My opinions matter just as much as anyone else's opinions. No one is better than me, and I am better than no one. I value people upon how they make others feel, not by a level of education, or their upbringing. I know people who have nothing who I'd rather hang out with than people who have it all. But, I need to be more open minded with xxxxx's friends. Maybe it is me who is snapping to judgments and is incorrect in it all. All I know for certain is that I am not going to leave xxxxxx just because I feel uncomfortable ((which, has been my chosen path in the past)). I am not going anywhere, and neither are they. Might as well try to get along, right?
However, I just finally am getting comfortable with who I am, and no one is going to make me change into someone I don't want to be. "
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